We have all declared it one time or another, but is it easier said than done? Would you agree that some things we are called to are easier than others? When we declare, “yes Lord” what are we actually basing our response on? Are we declaring it out of our spirit, regardless of what it cost, we will or are we declaring it based on past experiences? I have declared it a time or two based on past experiences. You know, you went and you did it and all went well. When we gave our yeses, were we cognizance of His ways and thoughts according to Isaiah 55:8-9, “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” declares the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways And My thoughts than your thoughts.”
Would we really launch out into the deep and push past our intellect, while standing firm on WHERE HE LEADS, I WILL FOLLOW? I have said it and guess what, I believed I really meant it and I did until I found out and said, “Lord, are You serious?” If you want comfort and you are adamant about it, you won’t get very far in this race. We’ve read how Jesus so gallantly spoke to Peter in Mathew 16:23-24, “Jesus said, “Get away from me, Satan! You are a dangerous trap “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” declares the LORD. You are seeing things merely from a human point of view, not from God’s. Then Jesus said to his disciples, “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross, and follow me.”
In this walk, we all have a cross. We won’t have comfort as we know it but we do have an assurance that He who has promised, He is able. He has promised never to leave us or forsake us, so we can take comfort in knowing that He is with us.
Growing up, I feared the dark. When the light was on regardless of what happened, I could handle it. Growing up we didn’t have street lights, so when we lost power all we saw was darkness. Now days we have street lights and so even when the lights goes out for the night, we are still able to see.
Back then when I went to bed even when the lights was not on in my room, I could still see because there were lights on in other rooms. I was not afraid because once again, I had some light that allowed me to see. I could see whatever was going on around me. If I had to move, I was able to see where I going. I had nothing to fear because I could see.
I vividly remember a night after I had went to bed, our town had lost power.The sound of thunder and lightning had caused me to wake up. Oh the fear that flood my soul. I couldn’t see anything. It was so dark; It felt as if the darkness had life. I became paralyzed with fear. As I sat there the darkness was so intense; I thought the darkness was going to touch me, silly me, as if that was possible. I couldn’t see anything. For a while I couldn’t open my mouth to call out to anyone.
I knew I had to say something but finally my mother said, “we are over here in the front room(that’s what we called the living room back then) where you left us.” For a while, I looked in every direction for a glimpse of light but I couldn’t see anything. The only hope I had was the voice I had heard from a distance. Her voice seemed muffled but I heard her clearly. Our house was modestly sized and it should have been easy for me to find her but I didn’t know what direction to go in, because I couldn’t see anything but, I knew I had to move.
With each step, I became more afraid but I didn’t allow it to stop me. As afraid as I was, I had to keep walking even in fear. I believed that was the only way I would connect with her voice, the voice I believed would bring me security and comfort. I never stopped walking because I believed that was my safe place. With each step I took , the fear seemed to dissipate. It seemed like forever, but I had no other choice but to keep walking towards her voice. I knew in order to get there, I had to keep walking. I believed if I had stopped, the darkness would have consumed me. A walk that should have been all of a few seconds, seemed like forever but, oh how happy I was when I connected with her voice. When I reached her, it was still dark but I wasn’t afraid. I had conquered the darkness by walking through it. I could have stayed on the bed and yell for someone to come to me, but I walked out. I overcame the fear of the darkness by confronting it. I knew in order to get to my place of comfort, I had to do it. I had to experience discomfort in order to get to comfort. It seemed like forever but I knew in order to get there, I had to keep moving.
The last few weeks seemed like deja vu. I felt like that little girl again, I was blinded by uncertainties, doubts and the forbidden “f” word, but sheesh don’t tell anyone!” I experienced fear. Is it possible though to experience fear but still believe? Some might disagree but I honestly experienced fear but I still believed. You ask how is that possible? Well no doubt I remained stead fast in my belief, but with each passing day and no change in site, I became a little fearful. Like that little girl who had to walk through darkness, with no sign of light to see where she was going and her faith that she would get to the voice, I too had to keep walking, even when it seem like I couldn’t see my way. There were times that I stopped and look in every direction for a glimpse of “turn here” or “keep straight ahead” but I had to trust that each step were steps, ordered by Him.
Our thoughts have to remain subjected to “The Word.” It can’t come along because it will cause us to doubt every time. We can reflect on Peter as he walked on the water. According to our intellect, walking on water is impossible and a sure way to sink and possibly drown if we cannot swim. Peter activated his faith in Jesus(the word) by stepping out and he walked, but only to allow what was going on around him to frightened him. Some say he took his eyes off of Jesus that’s when he got in trouble and I agree, but once again he allow what “he” knew to be true to shake his faith. He allow the wind and the thoughts of what the wind could do to make him doubt. We all know what happened next, Jesus, The Word, rescued him. Let’s reference 2 Corinthians 10:5.
Like Peter, I had to step out in obedience. I had to step out into what made no sense to me. I had to trust His voice. I had to trust Him even when I couldn’t see Him. I knew His voice and I had to follow Him. There will be times in our walk, we will look for Him and we won’t see Him. We must trust His voice, knowing that He is with us, regardless of how it appears or what may come. There will be times where situations will come to shake the very foundation of our being but, we must trust Him. “Who is among you, fearing Jehovah, Hearkening to the voice of His servant, That hath walked in dark places, And there is no brightness for him? Let him trust in the name of Jehovah, And lean upon his God,” Isaiah 50:10.
Believing in Him even when it makes no sense, requires us to do things opposite of what we think. As a child as fearful as I was that night, I stepped out in what brought me discomfort in order to get to comfort. I believed if I kept moving, I would get to a safe place and that place was with my mother. At the time her voice gave me hope even though, it didn’t take the fear away. It wasn’t until I began moving in faith that the fear began to die, her voice gave me hope that I could do it. I had witnessed security being with my family, I believed it was a safe place.
Allow me to further explain my experience with fear. I believe if we are truly honest we have all experienced a glimpse of fear but like the darkness that I allowed to paralyze me for a time, it couldn’t keep me. Situations will present itself in our lives and if we are not careful it will paralyze us with fear and hold us there. What we do with when fear shows itself, is the determining factor. I say we join with David, With my whole heart have I sought thee: let me not wander from thy commandments.Thy word have I hidden in my heart, that I might not sin against thee,” Psalms 119;10-11. We have to be fully loaded and ready to use the words against everything that may come to hold in us in dark places. We use the word as the apostle taught, “tear down arguments, and every presumption set up against the knowledge of God; and take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ” 2 Corinthians 10:5.
Trials are inevitable and the adversary knows it quite well. It will try to paralyze us by adding its voice, but we must do as the apostle have taught, “we tear down every strong hold that tries to exalt itself against the knowledge of God and bring it captive to the obedience of the word of God.” If it doesn’t line up with His word, tear it down.
The voices came to try to convince me that there was no hope of deliverance for my child. The voices even tried to legitimize the situations by adding statistics of how many young people had lost their lives being in abusive relationships. It even tried to capitalize on the length of time I hadn’t heard anything, by whispering, “oh any day now you will get the call that your child’s life was taken.” Here is where we have to declare, “though join hand in hand with the wicked the seed of the righteous shall be delivered.” I had to come face to face with fear, and look it in the face and declare the word of God. I could have found comfort as we know it by allowing the voices to hold me in a place of tears and pity. I could have allowed the words spoken by others (not intentionally) to legitimize me retreating into a place of comfort. You know what we like to say, “oh just continue to trust God; He’s going to do it. I know it is not easy because that is your child and no one wants to see their children in that situation.” I had to continue trusting in Him even being faced with uncertainties, that my child is delivered by word. I had to speak it even when it didn’t look like it. I had to keep trusting. I had to keep moving and believing. I had to keep moving just as I did when I was a child; As a child I had to get to the voice that I had witnessed as being my safe place. Now being fully grown and maturing in Him, I had to keep the faith in “The One” who had proven His faithfulness in the things concerning me, time and time again.
Even in ministry the enemy came and try to convince me that I was irrelevant and no one cared. My gifts were not wanted but once again I had to tear down the vain thoughts and stood flat-footed and declared the same words God had Jeremiah to tell the people, “He has a plan for my life and that plan is proper and not harm and to give me a future and hope,” Jeremiah 29:11. So regardless of what we may be walking through always know that He who has promised, He is faithful.
God reminded me several months ago about His warning to Jeremiah. He said Lennie, don’t be moved by their faces.” I didn’t understand it then, as I know it now. I have come to know quite well that it is just not about standing before a congregation but even in my walk. It will seem as if we are walking alone and guess what sometimes we will be, but God is ever-present with us. There will be times we may very well have to go it alone, but we cannot allow uncertainties to cripple us because even when we cannot see Him, He’s forever with us. We have to be attentive to His voice and follow His instructions. We have to always be ready to silence the voice of satan with “The Word.”
As a child I had almost allow the darkness to paralyze me and had I not acted on what I believed, I would’ve stayed in my room stagnated and waiting for someone to do for me what, I had the ability to do. This reminds me of the man at the pool. He stayed there for years because of his disability. He allowed what the world had proven to be impossible, to hold him there in a non-productive state. We know it was “The Word,” Jesus, that healed him, according to his faith because he had to act on the instructions given by Jesus. “The Word” trumps everything the world says.
Times like these in our lives, is nothing short of a spiritual warfare brewing, but we have to know that we are victorious. Spiritual warfare is no more than strong persuasions that comes to make us believe what the world says is true. It comes in such a way to make us question what we already know. It comes to contradict “The word.” It simply comes to kill our fight, steal our heritage and destroy our lives. But we have to have “The Word”of God in us to stand against the wiles of the enemy.
Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.
Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace;Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints; Ephesians 6:10-18
Use the word to arrest and destroy every thought and even words spoken by others that comes to contradict what “The Word” says!! We cannot lose with the stuff we use!! Dance in it!! There is power in it!! It causes things to happen when we use it by faith, because it has to be connected. When our faith and “The Word” meets, it produces. It causes things to happen. It’s just like conceiving, it has to be two organs, a man and a woman’s, but if there is no sign of life, sperm and egg: it cannot bring forth life. Both has to be viable in order to produce!! You activate your faith(the word is life already)and see what springs forth!
Great things has already happened, you say? Well good, oh but your eyes has not seen what’s to come or your ears heard, neither has any man’s heart beheld what’s ahead. He has great things in store! I promise, well don’t believe me, believe Him because He cannot lie and His word can’t come back to Him!!!