Let’s get it straight! Are you grieved or feeling sorry for yourself Lennie? Have you ever felt overwhelm with concerns for others or so you think? Have you ever experience others actions and it left you in disbelief, because you just didn’t expect them to behave in such a way? As sure as birds eats worms, none of us are perfect. I am sure there are things that others would never believe I would do;I just didn’t expect it. Well let’s just say these actions just confirmed my thoughts and maybe it was because I experienced it first hand but we will see!
The events left me responding like a child:
Look at what they are doing to me. I didn’t do anything to them. They bothered me for no reason. Why don’t they like me; I am trying everything to be nice. What is wrong with me? Lord what am I to do? I don’t want to play anymore! I’m going to my room. I don’t want to be bothered. I am only doing what You told me to do.
“Oh, Wow, No and OMG” yes that’s how I would describe this time in my walk. It was just too much and I have had enough. It left me wondering, what ever could God be thinking when He sees us(His children) behaving in such a way. I was grief-stricken. I was disappointed. I felt used. I was offended and finally somewhat disguised, so of course it all led me to wonder how He felt.
One morning as I was feeling down and a bit discouraged, I cried to the Lord in grief about the situations. I described it as being grieved for them. I became consumed so much so that a thought dropped in my spirit, “Lennie are you grieved or feeling sorry for yourself?” Hmmm!
I was led to Luke 19 and after reading, Verse 41,” But as he came closer to Jerusalem and saw the city ahead, he began to weep” a light came on and I said, oh! I realized the difference. It was not grieved. I found myself consumed by what I was feeling and what was happening to me. In Jesus’ case He saw the people and their state and He felt for them and the state they were in. He could have very well gotten caught up in what He was about to face but never did He utter a word about what was going on with Him. Not one time did He complain about how it all made Him feel. Well alright, I got it! He was grieved and I of course was feeling sorry for myself.
Child’s play is the first thing that came to mind. It led me to think back on my children’s younger days and how disappointed it made me when I experience them doing mean things to one another.
It was just good old fashion manipulations, sabotaging and hidden motives.
We did this when we were children right? Solomon wisely warns, “A child’s heart has a tendency to do wrong, but the rod of discipline removes it far away from him,” Proverbs 22;15. Allow me to assume that for this case in point, a child is not determined by his age but by the foolishness performed. So could we say then that our actions can make us children. Does that make us adults by age but children by our actions? So how does society label a person that has the age of an adult but cannot function as such, mentally challenged maybe? Ok ,if that’s the case then, what do we call someone who we consider as seasoned because of the length of time they have been saved and or with titles but performs as a child, could we say then that person is spiritually challenged? Paul said it best, “When I was a child, I spoke like a child, thought like a child, and reasoned like a child. When I became an adult, I no longer used childish ways” I Corinthians 13;11.
It comes a time in life when we must grow up. Our actions should be an indication of our growth. Take note of verse 41, when He approached Jerusalem and saw the state of the people, He wept and He grieved. As close as He was, He didn’t allow it to affect Him. It didn’t alter His assignment. He knew He had to do it for them. He had to die to His will so that they could live.
Some of what we are feeling has nothing to do with others but we ourselves. A child will whine about what someone is doing to him but a “man” (mature) would say “Father forgive them for they know not what they do.” We could only do this if we are aware of our purpose. We can only take this stance if we see them and not we ourselves. We can only do this if we know that regardless of the cross we shall reign.
Through a glass I see clearly now. Like children we get excited to see them learn and grow, so it is with Him. It is a constant learning and He marvels each time we pass a test. I have come to know these scriptures quite well and I leave it with you.
These things his disciples did not know at the first; but when Jesus was glorified, then they remembered that these things were written of him, and that they had done these things to him. John 12:16 Why was I surprised? They didn’t realize who He was until He gave up the ghost and all around Him things changed that they said, “this must have been the Son of God!” So I pursued in my assignment knowing that it was all foretold. We were warned.
My goal is to know Him and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death. Philippians 3:10. In order to reach the goal, we will encounter sufferings. We can’t reign with Him unless we are willing to suffer and it is the suffering that’s going to kill our flesh. When we are met with suffering we should not whine because remember He never said a mumbling word. He took it on so that we could live. Let’s just say it requires a life for a life and our soul is required of us. We have to deny ourselves so others can live.